Monday, December 17, 2007

days of mixed emotions..




"Touched my nose with the tip of his Index, a grin on his face as he said: hey cherry.."


^ one of the many dreams i've been having every night for the past 3 days..i end up sleeping for almost 12 hours! i just like the dreams and the feeling they bring. i just wanna keep on dreaming.

it doesn’t mean my reality sucks, no! Everything is just fine. =D
Dreams aren't my escape lately..thank god!

i'm not celebrating Eid home for the first time in my life..and i have mixed emotions about that, i miss home, and i'm sure i'm gonna miss all the little Eid rituals..but i'm also relieved; knowing that i won't have to go through the torment of all that social stuff and the shopping!

i mean if Eid was celebrated among family only, i'd be the happiest girl in the world! but it isn't. relatives and people i've never seen before come, and i never get enough sleep the night before. i basically have no sleep at all! Sometimes it's the excitement, sometime it's insomnia. but at the end: no sleep!
so around 1 pm i'll be too exhausted to even have lunch (i have it anyway lol)

then i wake up (with not enough sleep) to go out for dinner ( incase there was a reservation) or just a crazy wild cruise and a drive thru with my cousins.
last Eid we watched half of the movie 'Norbit' in the car in that McDonald's drive thru! unbelievable! which reminds me..i never finished that movie..hmm..

oh! and you can't even imagine how broke i am!
i lost all my savings when my handbag got stolen..i really hate myself for carrying all my savings with me in that damn bag! but i thought it's safer when i have them with me. Ah man..
i literally have 50 fils in my wallet. thank god my family is coming tomorrow..i can't afford another meal xD

:: my first final is on the 27th. and i think i'll be studying. unlike last year. i'm actually studying this time. yay for me! lol
and all my profs know me, i usually try to keep a low profile. but this semester i just felt like standing out. it was good profs-wise. but then i got bombarded with requests from girls in my classes, i'm starting to regret it.
"oh Nella, i was wondering if you could help me out with my project."
 pfft!
i did manage to escape a few, but i still had to help in a couple. (out of excuses lol) 
oh well

:: my sister has graduated 4 days ago. and i have mixed emotions about that..i'm kinda restless actually..she's my life companion.
i do everything with her, she knows me better than i know myself. i still have to spend a year without her in this dumpster.
but at the same time, i wanna see how will i handle life in here with absolutely no backs to lean on. kinda exciting.

wow, it's been a long time since i last updated...

3 comments:

NiGhTFaCe said...

"Norbit" isn't worth it, so it doesn't matter!

At the opposite, in the last few days I haven't been sleeping much, maybe except for today, where I spent most of the day on bed.

Eid Mubarak! :)

Castelluca said...

thanx NF =)

i've been told that about Norbit before, but i still wanna see the ending.

oh well..who knows? maybe mbc2 will show it one day :p

sensation said...

I love reading your blog :)