in bed..

so I was lying on my bed last night and well, usually that’s when I really start using my brain

Hehe..i was happy and a bit excited so I woke up and started typing this..cause I usually forget ^_^

So it’s 2:42 am ..and I’m typing what I was thinking about just a lil while ago while lying on my bed and kissing the pillow..

I know that most of my posts in here are just complains..but hey! That’s what a loser does best =P

Anyways..surprisingly this post is more like the opposite ^_^ I’m going to just say what I think of myself and the ppl I hold dear to my heart..Not just saying! This came after observation!

1- I’m very irresponsible and kiddy..but I’m kinda fun to be around..ppl say I never tell what I really think and I usually compliment ppl just to lift their spirits..i might be doing that but I also speak my mind umm, in away? and what harm can possibly be done? At least I make ppl happy! no?

2- I end up telling my feelings to the ppl close to me..what I like about them and how they make me happy..then I regret saying it coz mostly..it just make them do it on purpose..i like how they make me happy without knowing..like..spontaneously? and sometimes they hold them against me?

3- I’m so freaking lucky to have such a wonderful family ^_^ even though my dad can be a bit of a pain..well, not a bit but I still love him! Sometimes I never meet him for two days and i don’t miss him..but if he was supposed to fly to syria, KSA or Thailand..i start missing him right after he leaves..weird..

4- This post is a bit long =P so..gomen (sorry) hehe..

5- I always write what I wanna do in life..i start writing them done and then i lose the paper..i just wrote a few the other day and saved it..but it’s really a short list of what I once wrote..annoying…

6- My 17 years old sister is just amazing! She’s currently my roommate and we fight a lot hehe! But when I look at her..it makes me wonder how can someone be this amazing? She’s so beautiful..innocent and super talented! she’s a plumber, an electric technician, one hell of a video gamer, – oh btw! She’s a wining eleven freak! – she gets her way around the PC so perfectly..she draws ppl in..just like that. And a great deal of fun too! Whenever she cooks, food turn delicious and she looks like a women yet she acts like a boy..she doesn’t want to get married yet she wants babies..oh and we once asked her : what’s that thing you know you can’t do yet you dream of doing? She said : I want to be a homeless XD and she was serious hahaha..i love her ^_^

7- My older sister is VERY stubborn, bossy and a bit selfish =P but she handles the eldest job perfectly..she takes the word responsible to a new level..as long as I’m around her I feel safe and everything is alright..when she took off for college that whole year was just a waiting point in my life..just waiting to be with her again..everyone..even my parents used to say : you seem so lost without her..you don’t even smile the same way..
i just feel at home when I’m with her..even if a war was raging outside..and she was with me I’d feel safe..she knows every lil thing about me and she’s just amazing..oh! and she’s on hell of an artist! I love you! ^_^

8- I have so much to talk about so this might turn into a part 1! =P ..lets see…

9- Phat is one of the ppl I consider myself very lucky to have as a friend ^_^ he’s what you can confidently call: a true friend! .. He’s always there to help and to listen ..He’s very interesting and crazy ..He’s also very random ..Which makes him even greater! I also feel comfortable listening to him..and trying to make him feel better when he’s down..he has this comforting vibe..i love you! ^_^

10- My dad is the source of my oldest sister stubbornness, bossyness and selfishness ait’s like hers but X100? =P I’m for real! He’s also super overprotective..he’s got a great sense of humor..once you understand him..you’ll laugh your ass off ^_^ .. and he’s also one of the reasons I’m not that social..i’m just not used to being social after living with him for 17 years..or is it me? anyways, he’s very smart and very opinionated ..But yeah! i still love you baba ^_^

11- Mom..mom..i can have a blog just dedicated for this indescribable person..if I wrote about her as one of the many in here it’ll just be unfair..but I guess I can give you guys a hint, right? :P well, she’s a very kind person..she’s just the perfect mom anyone can ever ask for..i’m sure you all love your moms..but even if she wasn’t my mom I would still find her an angel..not coz she glows or that she’s kind and amazing..that’s just the truth..i just hope I die first..actually I hope I die b4 any of those I’m mentioning here..i came so close to some and I was born close to some..but I just can’t see my life without them anymore..mom? I love you ^_^

12- Sensei..what am I supposed to say here? Ok..first lets make sure all of my readers are 18+ LOL! Well, I’m kinda addicted to him lately..i just love spending time with him..sometimes I wonder..when you spend so much time with someone..will you get bored eventually? I don’t know..but I doubt it..and I sure don’t want that to happen! .. even when i’m not with him I feel like his with me..he’s smart, have potatoes for lunch and he goes out a lot too! Lol.. he’s also hell-arious! as in hilarious like hell? =P it’s funny how I used to hate his guts! Actually I can’t believe that I once hated him..I love you sensei! *hug* you are who you are eh?

13- Oblivious! This girl rocks! She’s beautiful from the inside out! So sweet and so much fun..i like how we get crazy together and mess with people’s heads =P she’s intellectual and dedicated to what she wants! ..She also gives second chances which is a very good thing..right? ;) she speaks her mind and i find her very easy to talk to..one of the ppl I really want to meet..some think online friendship is just 1s and 0s..me think not! How can all these feelings I have for those ppl be just cyber data? Oh..i miss her lately :( and did I mention how super sensitive she is? Hehe..I love you hon ^_^

14- Max..oh max! this dude is weird..rude, funny and sweet all at the same time..he kills me with his super rudeness sometimes but once you get to know him..oh..i mean once he gives you the chance to know him..you’ll just love him..he’s a genius..and most of the ppl I know are actually. I’m a genius’s magnet! When he cares he CARES! He often jump to WRONG conclusions =P and he hates the guts of Microsoft hehe..he’s old too j/k ..me love you ^_^

15- My 14 year old sister makes you truly understand the word weirdness =P ..there was a rumor going around that she lacks our magic .. yes me and my sisters are fairies.. and that makes sense really when you look at how weird she is..she keeps a lot to herself yet everything makes her cry! She’s the hardest to figure..she’s very smart and always the top of her class..she’s very creative and artistic..shes also very sensitive and the most ambitious of us..and she loves to hug! Umm, we all love to hug I guess :P she’s like ten times more of a daydreamer then me =P I know! That can’t be! But I love her weirdness and her weird ways of expressing herself..lulu? I love you ^_^

16- my youngest sister and the most adorable creature on earth is just..adorable hehe..she's so hyper and you just want to spend all the time with her..of course that's hard to manage but i still miss her right after i hug her..actually i miss her while hugging her.. ^_^ she's to me the best! even though she's 10 i just love talking to her about old ppl's stuff =P and asking her what she thinks about this and that..amuses me how she thinks..she's as well super talented..whenever she tries something she immediately becomes the best in it..didn't try her in the kitchen yet but i bet she'll surpass everyone ^_^ i love you Sarah!

17-hmm, it seems I'm the only one with no talents in the family..man..that sucks even more! don't get me wrong! I'm not jealous hehe.. sigh...

18-Morpha! he's so funny and sweet..even though i don't know him like the rest in here ,but i still find him a great friend..he seems to always be there when i need someone to be there the most..by accident? no! fate! lol. you rock ya sa3att al basha! ^_^

yaay! no part 2! ^_^ well, you'll only know there is no part 2 if you finished reading this..

*sigh*

just felt like sighing out loud ^_^

Childhood memories chapter 2:

So yeah…tomboys were the trend back then. And I was nothing close to one.
If we played (shur6a wa 7arami) I used to be caught right away and no! I was really giving it my all XD

Sure it was depressing since I always went out first and ended up waiting for a very long time for everyone else to be caught and for the game to start again. So It wasn’t fun and I began to skip the games. I bet they were grateful I did on my own. Not that they had a problem kicking me out of the game or complaining about me..

I was the last in almost everything!

I was the last to learn how to swim in the trio! Yup as hard as it is to believe I was a part of a gang.

I was!

But mostly they were forced to take me since we were close age-wise and whenever my grandma would spot me alone she’d scream her head off at the two of them and make them take me along on their weird treasure hunting trips XD
It wasn’t my fault! Why were they giving me the look! Grandma made them take me and made ME go along with them!

Well, to be honest I never blamed them for the looks coz normally treasure hunting involves climbing trees, walls or jumping around and I’m definitely going to slow them down and sometimes even trouble them when we go to places where I need the climbing skills to manage to return! Or go on!

But I wasn’t “completely” useless though

You see I was ........................“the shovel”!

Since it was a treasure hunt then I was supposed to be digging up the treasures they locate.

mostly it was digging up buried marbles -they buried them so I really can’t see how was it a treasure hunt- (lol)

To be continued…

my blog! my rules!

well, something triggered this..obviously :p

i was taking random pictures in my room one day which was something i never did in a while..about 2 years to be more exact and my sister was observing the whole thing and decided to comment when she saw me taking a picture of an ice cream i was eating and said : you're not planning on posting that on your blog are you?

i was like : maybe...

her: ugh..that's like so lame!

me: well, it's my freakin blog! i can post ******** if i want to!

it's my god damned blog! for god's sake! it's about me and what i do/think! if im eating ice cream and i wanted to blog about it then i blog about it!
if i'm in love and wanted to blog about my perfect boyfriend then i blog about him!

if i'm so not in the mood and wanted to blog about it then i blog about it!

*Inhales*....* exhales*

ok...laters

Valentine...

So it's valentine
Happy Valentine's Day you all ^_^

And to all those who are not alone…I hate you! :p

Childhood memories chapter 1

I really find it weird having a lot of my childhood memories flashbacking in an almost daily basis lately. why? well, coz I’m the day dreaming type so most of the time I wasn’t there to remember what happened.

It’s not like I remember everything of course..but the few I do remember are pretty clear ^_^

Starting with the age of two months! I remember when the plane took off! Yes I know I was 2 months old so I probably had no memory card placed in yet. But whatever..
Don’t believe me if you don’t want to, but I’m 100% sure I remember ^_^

Well, my childhood was some how happy. Even though back then all I felt was being…ah..I don’t know I can’t describe the feeling. But it wasn’t happiness that’s for sure! *rolleyes*

Anyways I was a bit too girly.
This earned me the cheerleading position in our neighborhood. I was the neighborhood cheerleader!!
And it’s weird, being the shyest quietest girl in the whole neighborhood and handling the cheering!! But cheering in my time was a bit different..

I used to cheer by sitting silently on the sidewalk and wait for the older boys to get tired of playing football so they come to me and I kiss them to recover.
I know I know! Sounds b!tchy! But I was 5! That covers it right? XD

Oh well, but I wasn’t that popular among the girls.. *sigh*
You see…being a tomboy was the trend back then..so me being the quiet daydreaming girl..umm, and a bit cute turned me into an outcast.

I never knew how to climb trees, run fast or ride bicycles
And it would be considered mere madness if someone suggested me as a player in a football team! The team I was supposed to join would protest and well, I’m sure they never meant it when they used to say:

That’s not fair! How come we get HER on OUR team?

The other team would reply: coz the teams gotta be even!

The cursed team: fine! Well, that’s not being even! She doesn’t count! She’ll probably be giving YOU the ball! - I was known to be a daydreamer. I was even replaced in a school dance when I was about 8. Coz I daydreamed once while preforming and it ruined the dance..what makes it worse is that it was preformed in front of some hotshot from the ministry of education - why don’t YOU take her?

The other “lucky” team: well, we chose first! Tough luck!!

Eventually I’ll either play with them and they’ll be swearing at me every time the other team scores or I’d just wait for the game to start and back off saying: I need to go to the bathroom! Continue! I might be late...

Well, mostly I’d lock myself in the bathroom and cry. I suppose you all agree that it hurts…

But I still think I would’ve made them win if they noticed my true potential! What’s that?
That I looked like the ball of course! They could’ve used me to confuse the other team! :p
Yup! I was a ball! Short and chubby (lol)

In fact my mom and aunts still wonder how did I grow up to be an average height person? Or even a bit taller than average :p

To be continued…

hum..pretty woman

So I went to Carrefour to shop with my little sister the other day..and as we went from an isle to the next..

getting the stuff on the list and crossing them out..we noticed that almost EVERY guy that passed by us was humming a song!

and only guys! all the ladies were minding their own business and humming nothing XD

i was like : is it the national humming day?

There was no songs playing in the place..and as I noticed only a few people had there iPods on :p
It was really weird..but it made me think..when do people hum anyways? When they’re happy? Or do they just hum?

I’ve been humming myself the past two days (pretty woman…walking down the street, pretty woman….)

And I won't say i'm happy..I’m just, the usual me..and when was the last time I heard pretty woman anyway? 5 months ago? XD

Tagged!

Tagged by 3T ^_^

What will happen to your e-mail when you die?

get deactivated?

Did you try once to give the password to someone? If yes, what kind of relation that you have with this person to trust him/her and give him/her the key of your secrets?

two ppl! a friend and someone else *winks*

Your famous nickname among your Friends?

i've got so many nicknames! but the most famous would be angel

Your age?

19

Your horoscope?

Aquarius

Your qualifications?

TEFL and no it's not TOFEL!! TEFL stands for (teaching English as a foreign language) : yes, as hard as it is for you to believe i'm going to be an english teacher..

Your character "personality"?

sweet, stubborn, lazy beyond anyone's imagination and extremely imaginative

What travel means to you?

a dream! its on top of my list of the things i wanna do in life ^_^

What do you purchase?

mostly, what i don't need! :p

Features taken from your dad

Legs. And I'm so grateful for them :p

Stubbornness

Musical ear?

Features taken from your mom

Kindness

Love for books

Nails

The most 6 things you hate-

Arrogance

Being misunderstood

Bad smells

Over-protectiveness

Liars

Making promises you'll never fulfill

The most 6 things you love-

My family

Pizza

Traveling

Music

My orange pillow

Languages

What computer and internet mean to you Currently?

It's My sanctuary, a place to be with friends and another source of life and knowledge.

You would like to pass this tag to:-

no one? or do i have to?